Hello Friends! Today I hopped in my car without a single child in tow, drove a few short miles down the road to do something new and exciting and a little out of my comfort zone.
I am 2 days to my due date with our 6th baby, and by the divine appointment of God I find myself sitting in Beth Moore’s "Study" at Living Proof ministries. Just a few days ago, Ms. Beth announced on social media that she would be opening a study room at her ministries office here in Houston (filled with resources, bible commentaries, and treasures galore), for anyone who could use a quiet place to study the Word, write, read, etc. It seemed like an invitation directly aimed at my heart and spoke to a yearning that I have voiced several times.
“I need to set aside designated time in my week, and find a quiet place that I can go and write and hear God’s voice.”
Similarly, my husband has brought up multiple times since we arrived in Houston just 2 months ago that I need to start writing and focus on writing a book. My response every time is, “Well the first thing I need to do is birth this baby!” I say it so often that I don’t think anyone truly understands how handicapped I feel until the baby is born. It has with every pregnancy felt as though I must put my entire life on hold for 9 months (at this point were talking about a span of nearly 5 years of pregnancy alone). But then there is God, and his timing is always so perfect. On Saturday I went to my 39 week midwife appointment and while talking to my midwife I very surprisingly heard her utter these words to me, “that’s why you need to write a book!” Trust me when I say that my new midwife here in Houston is by FAR the very LAST person on earth I EVER expected to hear speak those words over me. And yet she did. (enter suspicious thought bubble emoji here) God is that you?!?!! Lol.
Then, after my appointment, THAT VERY SAME AFTERNOON, Beth Moore shared on Instagram that she was opening her office for quiet study hours, open to anyone, including potential writers! I knew that it was an opportunity I needed to take as soon as possible; meaning before baby! (or else it would be something that I forgot about and let slip away, never seeming like a priority or further a divine appointment from God).
But please understand this first; walking into the ministry offices of THE Beth Moore is so very far outside of my comfort zone. Everything in my body begs me to stay home, turn around, go back to my kids and try to do this all from home. Try to sit and think and study and write, all with the constant pull and needs and wants of my kids every 1-2 minutes.
Alas, I really had no excuse not to give it a try. My mother is in town (built in babysitter) waiting for baby Asher to be born, my sister was in town but flew back to New York yesterday, and I am pretty positive that little Asher will be born on his oh so prophetic due date of 02-20-2020 (Double Portion BABY). Today was my last chance to take advantage of these precious, God appointed, quiet writing hours until after Asher is born and we get settled into our new life and routine.
As I sit here, there are 6 other women in this gorgeous study, lined with books and shelves and knowledge and truth. I can feel the power of the blessing of just being here. Beth Moore will always hold a special place in my heart. She became a true “friend” for me in my darkest hour when I read one of her books, “When Godly People Do Ungoldly Things”. Aside from my bible, that book was the only material I read that gave me a glimpse of hope. Through her written words, she so ministered to me and allowed me an aerial view of my situation when all I could see from the ground were dark clouds of gloom. Tyson eventually read the book as well and upon the first couple chapters admitted that for the first time while engrossed in darkness that he “felt something”-- that something was Hope.
It is all very prophetic really. I have decided I am going to start to talk and write about the prophetic more often because it has become central to the way I live and operate. Today I feel like describing prophecy in a little different way than I have in the past. Prophesy can sometimes be like the changing of the winds, when suddenly something that has been spoken, is lifted off the ground with a supernatural gust of energy behind it, to carry it forward in the direction it was always meant to go. Sometimes the prophetic promises lay dormant for a long while, and sometimes they are swept up just as quickly as they came to you. They are miraculous! And I absolutely LIVE to find, follow, and uncover the prophetic all around me.
To me this particular part of my prophetic journey and following God’s will, was all woven together, even in the dark season. It brought me from the darkness, to a book written by Beth Moore, all the way through a restored marriage, to a word from God to move to Houston Texas, to sitting, writing, in a sacred room at Beth Moore’s Living Proof Ministries. I am not going to get too carried away with what God will call me to next but just for a moment, just this exact moment right now, I am going to relish in the sweetness of his unrelenting Love.
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The last thing I said to my husband about this whole writing adventure, needing a quiet place and all that… the last thing I said to him (like yesterday) was, “If suddenly God sends me a baby sitter, then I will know that I know that I KNOW (what I am supposed to do)!” And then just last night all of our kids were in the front yard playing in the sprinkler, Tyson and I were cleaning out our disgrace of a family vehicle, and a neighbor who we have never met before, pulled up beside our driveway in her car and said, “I heard you guys have a lot of kids! I would offer to babysit but I think 6 might be a few too many for me…” It was cute and funny and neighborly, But more than anything it felt like one of those wind changing moments. It felt like God heard my declaration and that he was already on the hunt to find us a babysitter for 1-2 days a week, one that isn’t afraid of 6 kids, so that I can get away and write in a peaceful place, devoid of distractions, where I can go and meet with God.
And just like that my quiet writing time has come to an end. Luckily for you readers, my post today is quite short in comparison to my usual! Thank you for continuing to follow along in our life and journey toward God!
"Now then stand still and see this great thing The Lord is about to do before your eyes!" (1 Samuel 12:16).
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